Monday, April 29, 2013

Pregnancy News: 25 weeks

Hi friends,
Happy Monday! The babies have been doing well. I get an ultrasound every 2 weeks, so Ill be getting another one this Wednesday. I also get monitored twice a day with heart rate monitors for 20-30 minutes. Sometimes they move so much, it takes longer to monitor them. And night time monitoring is always the hardest. They are so active at night!
I have been doing better emotionally. I had a rough first week and a half. They took me off magnesium sulfate, because it literally made me crazy. I am now on procardia every 6 hours to control contractions. I have been tolerating the procardia pills so much better. They put me on monitor to check contractions 3 times a day for 1 hour.
B and Jayden spent the entire weekend with me. It was awesome!! Jayden did well, getting bored and fussy but eventually taking a nap on Saturday and Sunday. We played games, watched movies and shows, told stories and even sat through a thunderstorm on Saturday night. Jayden did not want to be anywhere else than with mommy and daddy.
We keep having faith that God will be with the babies keeping them healthy and safe in my womb for a few more weeks. And giving me much needed peace each and every day : )
Thanks for reading!

My big boy playing with his toys.

Daddy and Jayden.

Keeping himself entertained with a spoon!

That is hail! Bad thunderstorm.

And this is flooding at the hospital. B and J went outside to take pictures : )

Sunday, April 21, 2013

Pregnancy News: 24 Weeks

It's been a whirlwind of emotions this past week. I can't believe we have received some of the hardest news in this nation: Boston Marathon's bombing and West Texas Explosion. My heart goes out to each of you affected by all this sadness.
The hardest part for me has been that I am in this hospital bedroom and unable to do anything. At. All.
My sister's beloved father in law passed away this week, on Tuesday April 16. I got news that I was continuing to dilate, despite being on the dreaded "mag" (more on that later) and hospital bed rest, with bathroom privileges, late Wednesday evening. More bad news on Friday and I felt like my body had decided to shut down.
It is during this time, that my mind has been in such a fog with meds and devastating news, that it went into shock. Mentally. Not a good thing when you are trying to fight for your babies' lives.
Some of my pressures has been my faith. I knew it was being tested, more than I have ever felt, but the pressure to be strong. You are better than this, you are supposed to have more faith than this, are a few of the things I was beating myself up with.
Literally, in these short amount of days, I have come to realize that, this is what faith truly is. Letting it all go. All of it. But the best part of it all, is letting it all to God. One thing is to keep telling yourself that. But it's another thing to have no other option and realize that this whole time you thought you were walking by yourself, you weren't. Jesus was carrying you. I finally took the blindfold and haze away and saw Him. He's not letting me go. I just need to let Him carry me.
We have reached a huge milestone in this pregnancy especially since these last 4 weeks have been so hard physically and mentally. But we still have a long way to go. But one day at a time.
We appreciate all the thoughts & prayers, messages, texts, phone calls and visits. They keep me going daily!
Instead of focusing my negative feelings about "locked up" in my (hospital) bed,I'm going to focus on this blessing: more time for our babies in my womb. More time that I put in, means more time for a chance to be healthy when they are born.
This journey is far from over, but we truly know, it's only possible with our Lord.

A gift for my big boy. He loves Transformers.

24 week belly

Daddy brought his Xbox and tv to the hospital : )

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Pregnancy News: On Hospital bed rest

Hi friends,
I am 23 weeks, 3 days with our little miracles. It's been a whirlwind of a few weeks. I got an emergency rescue cerclage at 19 weeks, 5 days that saved their little lives. I have an incompetent cervix, that we had no idea about. I was able to stay home for about 3 weeks on strict bed rest, until I was hospitalized at 22 weeks, 6 days.
This has been the most challenging last few weeks, but I've been clinging to The Lord for strength. He is helping me get through each day, along with my wonderful family, friends, and hospital nurses and staff. I am trying to take it one day at a time and will try to update on here how it's going.
Ill post pictures and videos of my daily hospital adventures.

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!" Phil 4:13


I got a much needed bedside mani today : )

A kiss for brother and sister